Illusive Dream

A tribute from sorrowful sounds...

2007-01-08T09:07:00.001+08:00

hajime kara sono tsumori de kimi wa ita no kamo nante

sore nara sore de betsu ni ii ya

ima sara tashikame you mo nai

dare wo nikundara ii

nani wo oshikoroseba ii

te wo furazu ni satte iku hou wa boku yori kanashii no kanaa

nee ima boku no mune wa haritsumete shimau bakari de

tada namida dake ga darashi naku ochiru no desu

kanashimi wa nami no you ni nando mo kurikaesurashii

warui tsume wo hagu toki mitai ni itsuka yukkuri hagarete iku no kanaa

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translated version...

You never were in love with me to begin with, I think....

I don't really care when I think about it

It's not like I can go back and check

Who am I suppose to hate

What emotions am I suppose to hold back

Was the person who left without a goodbye the sadder of the two ?

Hey, all my heart can do now is hurt

I'm just crying here pathetically

I hear sorrow repeats over and over like the waves

I wonder if it'll grow out on it's own like a damaged fingernail ?

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quoted from Honey and Clover II [Hachimitsu to Clover II]

2006-12-28T08:53:00.000+08:00

Do you believe that in this world, is not only us living?
Do you believe that in this world, is not only this path is going on?
Suya always wondered if there was another dimension is going along with us all the time
A "parallel dimension" that created by "another" us with the other path
suya is wondering too, what path will suya lead on that dimension?
how will suya live the life there?
is it even more complicated or easier there?
and suya wonder if suya can jump to that dimension
however....
when suya tell about this to suya's friend
she said...that the path will not be different if suya had not "changed"
it's not about the path or our fate, it's all about ourselves
about how do we think, how do we face the path
but......
still, suya could not change to something like she said
suya still...curious about that path
however, eventough suya can find that path
suya might not find things like what they were in this path
and also.....as human, we can't go back against the flowing time
we can deny the path that is given to us, but
we can't avoid that path
still....
we have to walk in it as it planned by God
God.....
what will suya learn on this path?

An Envious...

2006-12-24T15:30:00.001+08:00

I'd always wondered...

Why this world is split between those

who are gifted and those who aren't ?

Why there are those who are loved

and those who aren't ?

Who made the split ?

Where was the split in the road ?

No...was there even a split in the first place ?

Perhaps it was already decided

the moment we were born.

If that was true.....

God.....

What was my life for ?

2006-08-21T21:56:00.000+08:00

I think we all want the same thing

to do something great, become rich and famous

marry our sweetheart and have a cute little kids

But most of us never realize those dreams

as the years passed, they drift away from our mind

one by one, like the leaves on autumn

We think they crumbled away and disappear

but the truth, they are always there

only scattered away by the wind of fate

And fate as we all know, is a fickle thing

Sometime she drops one of those leaves in our path

Just to see what we’d do

And of course, all of us are bound to pick it up